Divorce is painful, no doubt. Go through it; all the emotions of guilt, regret, etc. Get it out of your system for good. Cry, cry and continue to cry until you are all cried out. Tears are your liquid prayers. Do whatever you have to do within right reason to release and not suppress your feelings. Release is healing to your soul. Don't play like your fine with your family and friends, be honest. Deal with it now, so that you can heal properly and began to move forward to make you better for you.